no where else to go for this

I don't even know where to start. I know it's been a while since I posted, and I just needed to write and Facebook wasn't the place.


My nephew, A, of the eye issues, has more issues that have been recently diagnosed. Issues that regardless of what treatment they try, (since nothing works for everyone and some things don't work but for only a few,) will kill him. they've been trying this and that, varying degrees of success and now are trying something else. No one with his condition/issues has lived past adolescence. I about wrecked my car last night when my mother told me. I'm having a hard time grasping the importance of work right now when in all likelihood my brother will have to bury his son, and probably soon. A has surgery tomorrow, and the procedure following will have consequences depending on how his body tolerates it. He may go downhill quickly, he may not. we won't know.

Oh, and it isn't cancer. it's a rare thing, more prevalent in females. supposedly has hereditary links, but noone in either family has ever had similar issues. i'm just so torn up and cannot even imagine how my brother is doing, because he has to deal with crazy ex on top of all the rest, cause of course she blames him. Stupid bitch.

I'm just not with it very much right now, and don't know what to do. We've prayed and prayed and prayed. We've cried and cried. I feel utterly helpless and hopeless.